Justification and Blame

     Justification and blame seem to have played hand and hand on both sides throughout the past five weeks. So it got me thinking. Are our actions ever justified? Is the adultery justified due to hurt received from the marriage? Is bad behavior justified because of the adultery? I certainly try to find justification for some of my actions but is that what God wants me to be doing?
     The questions and journey began after a culmination of events leading up to my leaving the hospital after surgery a couple weeks ago. Emotions were shared, promises were made and broken  and I left the hospital feeling extremely vulnerable, both because of this and the doses of pain killers. With that said, I behaved badly, worse than badly, violently! I found myself out of control and throwing soda cans as we are driving down the highway. Where did my self control go? I had completely lost it and I am not joking. I am screaming, "You promised me you would make that call and end this craziness," and "Drop me off here." Thank you God he did not. I would have been stuck on the side of the road unable to walk from the surgery. After showing compassion for his pain from the beginning of discovery, what happened? I guess I had had enough of the back and forth game. So, I ask myself, are my actions justified? No. Jesus tells us to love even our enemies, then it is no question that we are expected to show the same towards the ones we love. Jesus demonstrated this kind of love for us when he died on the cross. I was convicted of my actions pretty quickly and made amends with him and God.
     Then I started asking questions.
     I first started with the definitions of these words.
Justification- Show to be just, right
Blame- accuse of being at fault
     This has turned out to be more in depth than I thought but here is what I have been given so far. In order for someone to find themselves "just" they must judge another persons actions. If I made excuses,  by listing all the reasons why I did what I did, then I would essentially be saying that his actions were worse than mine and that it was ok to act that way. That would be a human measuring stick against sin and not a Godly one. God is the only one that has the ability to judge and decide what is just. So the question I am working on now is how would God have wanted me to react? Obviously not like I did.
Isn't it a challenge sometimes to draw hard boundary lines and still show the love of Christ?


Forgiveness lies in repentance.
"Even now," declares the Lord,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."
Joel 2:12

Anyone have any Biblical insights into this subject?

Thanks- JR